Looking Ahead: New Year’s Resolutions

I love setting myself resolutions at the start of the year. I don’t always hit them, but I enjoy giving myself a goal and having something to aim for.


Recapping on this year’s resolutions:

  1. Run a sub 2hour half marathon: that’ll be a big fat no. I only ran one half marathon this year and from memory I did it in about 2:15-2:20. In 2013 I came so close with 2:00:58, so I think this will always be something on my wish list!
  2. Read at least 1 book a month: YES! I read 5 in just one week on holiday earlier this year and I now have a 3hour daily commute so I easily get through a book every couple of weeks. This is something I’d definitely like to keep up.
  3. Buy my dream YSL purse: YES! On my birthday in May I went into the YSL store on Bond Street in London  ready to make the purchase…sod’s law they didn’t have the navy colour I wanted in stock. In fact nowhere in Europe did. Fast forward to early November and during a trip to New York I found a store on Fifth Ave, walked straight up to the assistant (who had ‘Fuck You’ tattooed on his eyelids!) and declared that I was after a particular purse and could he help…off he went out the back to have a rummage and sure enough he came back with the exact one I was after. I had to pay more than I would in the UK for it, but I was so happy to find the colour I wanted I didn’t care. It was an extravagant purchase, but totally worth it. I tell myself that (hopefully) one day I’ll have a mortgage to cover and children to pay for so I should treat myself now whilst I can!FullSizeRender
  4. Grow my hair: hmm, the jury is out on this. I think my hair is possibly shorter, if anything, however it’s definitely longer at the front (I had an awful short at the front, long at the back style mullet) so it now feels thicker all round. Like 90% of girls with shorter hair I’m craving a Sienna Miller-esque bob but ironically I need to grow the front a bit more in order to get the rest all cut off.
  5. See my family more: YES! During the early part of the year I certainly made more effort and moving further out of London in April meant I had access to a car and was only an hour from home. By September things all changed and I’m now living back with my folks (temporarily whilst I save for a flat) so that resolution has a massive tick next to it, even if it wasn’t in the way I intended. I feel good being nearer family. The last time I lived in Essex I was 18 and desperate to move out of home, but for now although I struggle with not feeling as independent I know the end of goal of buying my own next year means this set up is perfect for now.FullSizeRender-2

Which brings me nicely onto next year’s resolutions. I may not hit all of them, but I’ll certainly be trying my best. Number 6 isn’t as easy to measure, but I think it’s good to bear in mind when I get to this same point next year and how I want to feel.

  1. Complete Toughest obstacle race as part of team FemPower
  2. Complete Berlin Marathon in sub 4:30 (my PB is 04:42:39)
  3. Get on the property ladder
  4. Appear in a Craig David video
  5. Learn to park a car properly (practise, practise, practise)
  6. Realise that my self-worth is not measured by what the scales say and the size of my bingo wings – I am enough!

Do you set resolutions? What are yours? I’d love to hear!


Goals, goals, goals…

According to Timehop, this time 3 years ago a film crew were in my home rigging up cameras to film me scoffing my face over the course of a week for Channel 4’s Secret Eaters (you can watch it on 4OD here).

At the time I was what I’d call ‘normal’ overweight. A size 16, but nothing that would cause a doctor concern. I felt massive though, and knew if I carried on the way I was going then I’d easily have slipped into full on fatty status.

Secret Eaters taught me that my overindulging wasn’t in the meals I cooked, but actually in my mid-afternoon snacks and alcohol consumption. I always tell myself they caught me on a bad week as it was the lead up to Christmas, but actually it probably wasn’t that out of the ordinary.

In the 9 months after the show was first filmed I lost 2 stones and looked very different, but at the time I still felt big (despite dropping 2 dress sizes) and kept finding new goals to hit.

Then monotony of being always so fixated with my weight loss, diet and exercise set in and I kind of let things slide a little, putting 10lbs of it back on, but feeling bigger than ever.

After a year of pretty much staying the same weight, give or take a few pounds, I have hit that point again where I’m ready to make a change.

I go through phases like this quite a lot, but never really mean it. I think weight loss, or looking at your diet, is as big a mental issue as it is physical. It’s fecking horrible when your physical appearance is on your mind 24/7.

This is why when I noticed #Fempower cropping up on Twitter that it caught my attention. The brainchild of Melissa Weldon, one of my favourite trainers at 1Rebel, Fempower was set up to build a community of strong, healthy and confident women. Melissa is a huge advocate of supporting women, wants to instil in us that our worth isn’t measured by the number of likes our Instagram selfies get, or the size of our jeans, and has been recruiting a team of women to join her and take part in Toughest, an obstacle course race taking part in London (well, technically East Sussex) in April 2016.

Last month I took the plunge and signed up. I’m now a member of Team Fempower and despite realising how ridiculous these obstacles we’ll need to tackle in April, I’m strangely excited.

Today I headed down to Hyde Park to join her and around 30 other women in a circuits workout…where I can safely say I quickly realised that I barely have enough strength to squash an ant, and therefore have a lot to do if I expect to be throwing myself over walls, climbing rope and all sorts next spring.

This week 2016 looked set to be a year of fitness for me as I found out I got a ballot place in Berlin Marathon next September.

When I signed up to Secret Eaters 3 years ago I was training for my first marathon, and have since run 2. I have felt like I’ve had a third in me for a while, but got completely bored with running so had a winter off and now will be back for a third next year.

For me, I like goals. I like to have something to aim for, a focus, a deadline. It keeps me motivated.

So, here I pledge the following goals for 2016:

  1. Complete Toughest with a group of inspiring, motivational women by my side
  2. Complete Berlin Marathon in sub 4:30 (my PB is 04:42:39)
  3. Realise that my self-worth is not measured by what the scales say and the size of my bingo wings – I want to truly believe in this, so this may be the biggest challenge!

I hope to use this blog as an outlet to track my training, my diet (this is where I really need to focus), my ups, my downs and my musings over the next 10 months.

Here we go!


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My whole life has been turned upside down over the past 3 months, and a wise man once told me that stress happens when you lose control.

Today I want to take some control back, and with that comes the decision to start blogging (I can hardly call a handful of previous posts blogging) with focus on looking after my health and improving my fitness.

Watch this space as I navigate my way through losing the stone that’s hanging around my stomach and thighs and training for Toughest, possibly the most insane obstacle course going (I should’ve checked out the details before signing up)!

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